I love this piece so much. My journey with BPD has brought on a variety of “breakdowns” and I also felt the same strange relief when I was diagnosed.
Telling these stories is so important. I’m in the beginning stages of my journey in sharing my story and making sense of it all, but it totally resonates that healing trauma comes from “creating a relational home”.
Also -- I LOVED the Bat Mitzvah movie on Netflix. As someone with two daughters I’m such a sucker for any story of two sisters and a lost/loving dad. Sandlers kids were so awesome and it looked like they had a lot of fun as a family on set.
YAY! Thank you so much for taking the time to read the piece and to share all of this Bryce! The breakdowns are so confusing, aren't they? I feel like they are a sign that we don't always know how to read or listen to until later.
Awareness has been so critical for me. Learning how to spot the signs early on lets me know that I need to do some work before we go full breakdown. Mindfulness is key for this. Also, recognizing future vulnerable events and setting up a plan to combat them is soooo helpful. My therapist calls this "coping ahead" and it's helping me so much with setting myself up for success.
Im so intrigued by the “nervous breakdown” catch all. It’s been something almost like lore referred to in enigmatic old stories of a relative without any real knowledge of what that means because the the language was non existent at the time. As an adult who has been informing myself more, I often wonder if this type of thing was more high escalated panic disorders. And because people couldn’t deal with it and didn’t have the tools it got classified as “nervous breakdown”
Unrelated, I happened to watch the first two episodes of “Depp vs Heard” on Netflix. Don’t think less of me please. Anyways Depp is no stranger to substance abuse and not surprisingly he has a family history of mental health challenges and he talks about how his mother used to take “nerve pills” that he was asked to give her from a young age. At some point him his tweens he was having increasingly difficult unmanageable feelings and didn’t know where to turn so he started snagging a pill everytime he gave his mother one.
YES you nailed it. It's always been this weird catch-all that people heard their parents refer to in hushed tones -- "enigmatic old stories of a relative " is brilliant. I have to assume it's some sort of ignored panic/anxiety disorder that will not be ignored and hits a breaking point.
And I read your newsletter religiously! I would never judge you for Depp backstory -- cut to a photo of me literally kissing a lifesize poster of him in the 21 Jump Street Days on my wall in Toledo, Ohio, age 14, 1989.
I will say. Watching this D vs H expose because it really is more “Current Affairs” expose in feel than a documentary of any sorts, Depp really is masterful at commanding the courtroom. I never had the crush or any celeb posters in my room (maybe I’m weird) but I had my grunge crushes
I love this piece so much. My journey with BPD has brought on a variety of “breakdowns” and I also felt the same strange relief when I was diagnosed.
Telling these stories is so important. I’m in the beginning stages of my journey in sharing my story and making sense of it all, but it totally resonates that healing trauma comes from “creating a relational home”.
Also -- I LOVED the Bat Mitzvah movie on Netflix. As someone with two daughters I’m such a sucker for any story of two sisters and a lost/loving dad. Sandlers kids were so awesome and it looked like they had a lot of fun as a family on set.
Great feature.
YAY! Thank you so much for taking the time to read the piece and to share all of this Bryce! The breakdowns are so confusing, aren't they? I feel like they are a sign that we don't always know how to read or listen to until later.
Awareness has been so critical for me. Learning how to spot the signs early on lets me know that I need to do some work before we go full breakdown. Mindfulness is key for this. Also, recognizing future vulnerable events and setting up a plan to combat them is soooo helpful. My therapist calls this "coping ahead" and it's helping me so much with setting myself up for success.
Im so intrigued by the “nervous breakdown” catch all. It’s been something almost like lore referred to in enigmatic old stories of a relative without any real knowledge of what that means because the the language was non existent at the time. As an adult who has been informing myself more, I often wonder if this type of thing was more high escalated panic disorders. And because people couldn’t deal with it and didn’t have the tools it got classified as “nervous breakdown”
Unrelated, I happened to watch the first two episodes of “Depp vs Heard” on Netflix. Don’t think less of me please. Anyways Depp is no stranger to substance abuse and not surprisingly he has a family history of mental health challenges and he talks about how his mother used to take “nerve pills” that he was asked to give her from a young age. At some point him his tweens he was having increasingly difficult unmanageable feelings and didn’t know where to turn so he started snagging a pill everytime he gave his mother one.
YES you nailed it. It's always been this weird catch-all that people heard their parents refer to in hushed tones -- "enigmatic old stories of a relative " is brilliant. I have to assume it's some sort of ignored panic/anxiety disorder that will not be ignored and hits a breaking point.
And I read your newsletter religiously! I would never judge you for Depp backstory -- cut to a photo of me literally kissing a lifesize poster of him in the 21 Jump Street Days on my wall in Toledo, Ohio, age 14, 1989.
Or maybe age 12, 1987? Either way I was kissing it.
I will say. Watching this D vs H expose because it really is more “Current Affairs” expose in feel than a documentary of any sorts, Depp really is masterful at commanding the courtroom. I never had the crush or any celeb posters in my room (maybe I’m weird) but I had my grunge crushes